10/27/2024

I emailed my work to one of the directors of the Graphic Design course (who'd been open to emails from applicants) at the university I wanted, and got rejected from applying. He said I can try again next year and preferably learn to draw in the months between- but I didn't know getting told 'No' even when I know it's fully justified would piss me off so much when it happened. I got a job offer and second interview scheduled the same day so it's not as if I'm completely fucked, but getting to formally work on my GD skills had been something I wanted. I just want to be somewhere at least once where everyone around me isn't a living fucking joke. Where people are actually trying, and this school felt like that kind of place. I still have a malpractice lawsuit my lawyer is working on in the background so I don't expect to be lacking for money in the future either. It's just, what the hell should I do in the meantime and what should I start building now for a career just so settlement money isn't all I'll have to live off of. I did get so angry at myself for being rejected though that I think it did finally do some shit to my brain where I want to pick up a pencil in seriousness. I wanna buy a new sketchbook.