BLACK HOLE SUN
"What am I waiting for, the moment silence can be heard." - 'Another Moment Follows', Cloudberry Jam
Name: *REDACTED*
Age: 90'S ADULT
Gender: Non-Binary (She/Her & He/Him pronouns)
Sexuality: Lesbian
I'm crazy and I have chronic pain from nerve damage but I'm FIGHTING everyday. My anger issues go from 0 to 100. I hate making things but not making anything would have me die. I always wanted to be able to draw but I don't have the patience for it (Yet) so I write to pick up the slack. My one talent is that I'm good at writing but I fucking hate doing it. I love my two cats.
My ipod Photo broke last month (Oct.) and I'm too broke to fix her right away. We've been together since I was 15 or 16. Over 10 years. The fucking HDD gave out finally after 19 years since it rolled out the factory. Then in the process of fitting it with a replacement I broke the LCD & Clickwheel ribbons. I buy a replacement Clickwheel and it arrives already torn but working; in trying to fit it on I ripped it all the way so it's dead. On top of that the replacement HDD I bought ARRIVED broken. I sent it back for a refund and weeks later they send the broken shit back to me without even a note to explain why!!! No refund. Fuck my life. Never buying from Elite Obsolete again. Only good thing about this is I can finally flash mod.
I'm only 15 chapters in but I'm getting so fucking bored. Only mildly interesting character to me is Sayaka and that's because she has a (mildly) defined backstory that plays into her defined goals naturally. Touko's backstory with the dead sister feels like it comes out of left field with next to no proper foreshadowing to set up her actions or outlook beforehand, they mention some 'incident' happened to change her like One time before the death reveal. Then there's her suddenly wanting to do the play but that's it. I don't give a shit if it's that flimsy. It feels like a dramatic excuse to get the audience to overlook how much she can't make up her mind and her impulsivity.
At least she's marginally better than Yuu, whose sole purpose as a character is to function as an emotional sandbag to generate melodramatic tension in this "Will they, Won't they?" via her refusal to act on or admit much of anything. She constantly second guesses or denies intent behind anything she does to the point where were she not the blank check protagonist she'd never function. Also the story wants me to buy these people caring about each other but witholds scenes of them hanging out or sharing interests between long stretches of the melodramatic tension sandbagging. If you have to fill your story with drama to the point of forgetting any other method for character development you have zero characters who don't just obviously exist to move the plot forward.
I can't say it's Terrible because there are things like Sayaka and her story that keep me mildy engaged; I do also want to see if maybe it fixes itself despite the abysmally slow pacing, because the scenes that are cute are done well. It just feels like any genuine chemistry and character building is buried under putting this shitty melodrama first as a selling point. It reeks of insecurity. The appeal given by the author isn't on the merit of story and characters but on appealing to the "forbidden" perception of same sex relationships, while tossing mentions of homophobia as dressing. I gave it a 5 for Average on MyAnimeList for this reason. Otherwise I would call it straight up bad, instead of just average for most Yuri specific media, which is often bad.
**UPDATE 12/18/2024** I finished. This shit sucked lmao.
